The first time

The first time I painted
It was a silver brush that painted red.

The first time I painted
I felt alive for a little while.

The first time I painted
I thought I was in control.

The first time I painted
Was never my last.

The first time I painted
A monster I became.

The last time I painted
I died that night.

The last time I painted
I had no other fright.

Happy holidays

Merry Christmas and happy holidays!!!

Hope you have a wonderful time!!

Hospitalized

I'm just gonna say it so everyone knows.

I'm suffering from depression.

I have anxiety and OCD and have suffered from eating disorders in the past. I self-harm.

I just need everyone to know that I'm in the hospital for the third time and don't know when I'll be out and back into society again.

Take care, everyone.

Hope you all understand.

Leni-Anne Blacker (NightNerd)