It's

It's like you're breaking
A shattered feeling
In your heart
That all you loved
And all you've done
Was a waste
Of time

It's crying
Weeping to the heavens
Asking for love

It's harder
And harder
To relearn
How
To
Love

It's like you've managed
To push
Everyone
Away

It's strange that
You still want
Love
But
Can't love
Others
In Fear
Of
Loss

It's you, wishing
For another time
Another person
Another thing
You can
Learn
To love
Again

It's as if
They didn't
Leave you

It's always
The same
Story, though

It's them
That
Leave
You
Behind
And

It's going
To be
Them
That
Move on,
Not
You

It's never
You
Because
You can't
Understand
How to
Love
Again

It's after
They
Leave
(Like
Always)
That
You
Fall
Apart

It's piece
By piece
And

It's me
I
Lose
Every
Time

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It's Been 3 Years!

Hey peoples! :)

How are you, lovelies? Hope all is well <3

IT'S BEEN THREE YEARS SINCE I STARTED THIS BLOG!!!!!!!!
Time really does fly when you aren't paying attention!

I can't believe the way I've grown as a writer and that I've actually been blogging for this long. I'm so happy to have continued this passion, even if I don't always have the time to post!

Stay strong and keep dreaming!

xox,
Leni-Anne Blacker aka NightNerd18

What has this world come to?

What has this world come to?

A world where children are dying and starving.
Where there's terrorism and acts of violence all around us.
A world where no one is safe.
Where everyone is at risk.

When did it become okay to hurt one another?
When did it become alright to kill one another?

Have people no hearts?

People who cause these horrible tragedies are the reason our future descendants will live in a world of fear.

We cannot turn on each other. Not now.

We must stay united and respect and love one another.

Now is not the time to start fights over race, sex, religion and other small details of someone's life.

It is not a time to judge one another for a belief.

The time has come to stop this madness.

There is no other time than today to share the love for each other.

After all, who knows what tomorrow will bring...

Please, spread the love.

Create peace.

Fall - 2015

As I fall down,
I quickly see
Others just like me.
I feel free,
And float from trees.
To the grounds,
Filled with oranges and greens.
I drift down below
And fall lightly,
Right before the snow.
I am admired among others,
And left to wonder.
What will become of me,
A leaf like all others?

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Hey peoples! :)

It's FALLLLLLLL (AKA Autumn)!!

I love this weather (AKA SWEATER WEATHER)!!

Anyways, I went out today to the park and decided to take some pictures to show you all what fall looks like over here in Montreal.

I hope you enjoyed my little poem and pictures!!

Stay beautiful xox

Leni-Anne Blacker

If I Was A Rug

If I was a rug, I'd simply wait in a store.

I'd wait and wait until someone came knocking at the door.

I'd be the happiest rug in the world when someone would pick me out and look at me.

If I was a rug I would try to gain attention and offer my help.

Perhaps this help would be keeping people's feet clean before they walked into a home.

Or even keeping them warm on a dark day.

I'd let myself be walked on, and would be happy at first that I was needed.

But slowly, so slowly, I would realize the extent to my use.

What was I good for?

Nothing.

After a while, people take you for granted.

They expect so much from a sweet little rug.

But if the sweet little rug becomes bitter and rough, it's their own fault, not those who used it.

In the end, they end up throwing the rug away.

They buy a new one, a nice little innocent rug.

And then you're gone from their lives.

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I wrote this poem as symbolism to something that recently happened in my life. I had people in my life who I thought were my friends. I thought they cared for me and loved me. It turns out they only used me for their own benefits. I was deeply damaged by this and felt like I could never trust anyone again.

But I know that life is harsh and cruel but we must keep pushing on and being courageous and kind. We cannot afford to have any more cruelty in this world that we live in today.

I hope that you can all be brave and kind and gentle.

Do it for others.

Do it for yourself.

xox
Leni

What Should I Post? - Blog Update

OH MY GOSH!

It is freaking hot outside.

I'm sat outside, just tanning and figured I might as well do a blog update!

If you guys didn't already know, I have a YouTube channel!!!!!!! I post random videos! Concerts, music videos, lyric videos, vlogs, beauty videos, hauls, etcccc.

My channel is youtube.com/NightNerd18 , so feel free to go check that out :)

Also, the links of where you can follow me are in the info section box thingamabob area of my YouTube videos, so also feel free to check those out and see what I'm up to!

Gosh damn it, it's like 30+ degrees out here right now. wHaT aM i DoInG?!

Haha but in all seriousness, what would you like this blog to be about? I'm open to any suggestions you guys may have! :D

I hope you're all doing great and just let me know what you want me to post now-a-days! Thanks, love ya <3



Leni-Anne Blacker aka NightNerd18

M.A.C. @Rockland Shopping Centre Review

So I recently went to M.A.C. to get some makeup for prom.

In all, I had a really good experience. The people working there were super helpful and knew what they were talking about.

Right away, someone asked if I was in need of help. I replied, saying that yes, I did need help and was looking for these specific products.

I was looking for the lip pencil called "Soar B15" and could not remember the lipstick's name! She knew which one it was right away! I was blown away.

The lipstick is called "Faux A45" and is quite beautiful.

It also turns out that Kylie Jenner uses the same duo and that it's super popular! I had no idea until the lady told me this.

Then came the "toner" as I called it. What I was actually looking for (as I later found out) was "BB Cream."

The lady working picked the right skin tone the first time! She really knew what she was doing and I felt very relaxed, knowing I was getting the right things done just before prom!

They didn't end up having the BB cream I was in need off, so they gladly gave me three (free) samples! I was enjoying my visit even more!

Although the products were overall expensive, I really did pay for quality.

I ended up bringing my products to my friends house to get my makeup professionally done for prom. What amazing work she did!

I'm really thankful for everything M.A.C. did for me! And my friend too!

Anyways, I hope you liked my review and if you did (or didn't) let me know in the comments bellow! Thanks!

YouTube: An Encouragement

Did you know that YouTube has more than 1 billion users? “YouTuber” is word that is becoming more and more popular with today’s generations.

A “YouTuber” is a content creator on the YouTube website, meaning they post videos and share them with worldwide audiences.  It’s more and more common to find someone who posts these videos on the site. Even kids are doing it!

YouTube was created in 2005 and is still an on-going website where people share videos throughout their lives.

There are many types of YouTubers, such as vloggers (people who video blog their lives), and beauty gurus (people who post videos with tutorials on beauty products). There are comedy channels, film channels and even collaboration channels (where a group of people gather together to film a video.)

Becoming a YouTuber is quite simple. You just need a Google+ account and then can start uploading on YouTube.com!

Popular YouTube videos include pranks, tutorials and films, along with vlogs (video blogs) of peoples’ lives.

Many popular YouTubers such as Tyler Oakley, Troye Sivan, Joey Graceffa and Connor Franta are even coming out of the closet on YouTube, leaving YouTube viewers in tears with their emotional video uploads.

YouTube is a great place for “how-to’s” videos and tutorials, along with funny uploads of cats and people alike, leaving people hysterically laughing for a good fifteen minutes.

Most YouTubers live in two places: L.A. or the U.K. but there are content creators scattered around the world. A lot of content creators get paid to post videos on YouTube and even get paid to travel the world and film things for their viewers!

A lot of YouTubers have also encouraged people to never give up and to not self-harm or to not commit suicide, and the viewers listen to their idols.

Danisnotonfire (aka Dan Howell, YouTuber) speaks the truth about his problems and encourages everyone to support each other in the comments sections of videos posted on YouTube. He says, “You are a human with one life and it’s up to you to make it the best life you can. Do what you do to be happy. Don’t change for anyone.” Dan’s best friend, Phil Lester (AmazingPhil) says he agrees with Dan and says, “Just know; it will get better.”

Connor Franta, who recently came out on YouTube as gay, says, “One thing that seems hard for people to do nowadays is love themselves. I feel like our generation is just so obsessed with the idea of perfection and we don’t need to be.”

These YouTubers are just a handful of content creators that speak up about the world’s problems. They all have one goal in common: Make the world a better place for all.

Waves Crash - Poem / Blog Entry

I've always loved the ocean, ever since I was born!

I was on the school's swim team for three years and honestly, I couldn't be happier about that. Swimming is such a passion for me, I just love it.

I recently just got back from Cape Cod, MA, USA. I've been going there since I was a little kid. It's my favourite place in the world!

We only got to go to the beach twice this time, but we swam in the hotel's pool every night, which was amazing for me.

Anyways, here's a little poem about the beach that I wrote!

The waves crash

Kissing the shore

Always longing for more and more

The waves crash

Giving us shells

And sea creatures galore

Mermaids will watch

As we pick up their brush

Taking it with us

As we rush away

Before the storm

Hits the bay

The waves crash

Higher and higher

Taking away

My sweet desire

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